God dammit... I'm a little depressed right now and I just need to vent, but there's no one to talk to here... Alright, so Solo and Ensemble is coming up at our school... if you don't know what that is it's a competition for string players (I mean there's band too, but we're not competing against them) And I asked my mother if she could find an accompanist for me, because finals are coming up and I really have to study. Later, I ask her if she did and she goes "Do it yourself" of course, by then it was to the point of sounding EXTREMELY irresponsible and making me really embarrassed. I don't understand why it was so difficult to help me out a little??? And then when she was describing a loser to my little brother, she uses me as an example. WTF? I'm in orchestra, I get all A's, and I let my social life DIE for my grades... How am I a loser?! THEN she has the nerve to say "Alright, I'm watching the movie, I don't care that you guys don't want to watch it with me" she was talking about the movie "Four Christmases"... why this makes me mad??? For THREE DAYS she asked me to watch it with her, for THREE DAYS I said that I wanted to, and for THREE DAYS she totally ignored me...*sigh* I just don't know what to do... I guess I just have to get through the next two years... then I am NEVER coming back...

I got grounded xD; I smacked my little brother in the face and he faked crying so I could get in trouble =w=; I'm grounded till... January... unless I can beg my parents over the break xD I'll try to sneak on when I can